Tonight I will go back up to the spare room to sleep, having swapped to be close to the children over the last few nights. I had forgotten how a little black cloud would descend over my world, without warning, as soon as Husband came through the door. I can already feel the stress building between my shoulder blades.
Still, I have had a lovely time while he's been away, and for that I am thankful. This will be the second Sunday night in a row which I will spend, remembering to be thankful for what I have had rather than mourn for what I no longer have.
This is getting so sad.
ReplyDeleteIt reminds me of how sad my daughter was before her husband got very sick. Things were much the same.
There's not much anyone can say really except that we are all thinking of you and wishing you well. X
That sunny attitude will bring you through anything. Well done you for making the most of your time.
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xx
You will have it again one day - happiness that is. A day at a time, small steps towards your goal. (Did you do that thing yet?!) x
ReplyDeleteIf I could give you a hug I would, I wish I could say something to make you feel better. Please know I am thinking of you and sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.
ReplyDeleteThis is sad. :( I hope you and hubby can make mutually agreeable arrangements so that you are both happy again.
ReplyDeleteYour spirit is in tact my friend...you will survive and endure and be better for it!!
ReplyDeleteYou must be in a very difficult situation - hope things sort out soon for you.
ReplyDeleteSorry sweetie, missed your last post again.
ReplyDeleteI really feel your sadness at HIS return. But think forward like you are doing and the sun will shine through.
Thinkin of you xxxxx
Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry you feel that way. It must be very difficult for you, at the moment. At least you made the most of your few days.
ReplyDeleteHi Surburbia, you are right to have made the most of your days without Husband.
ReplyDeleteI am sure you will come through all this, to quote the sad old cliche,
what does not break us, makes us stronger.
My thoughts are with you.
Letty ;0)
Que Sera Sera
Take comfort in your children, they are the future.
From one who knows............
You will survive, your thoughts are changing for the positive so that is a good sign. I am thinking about you. Hugs!!
ReplyDeleteWish I could chase those black clouds away for you, Suburbia! Keep thinking positive thoughts and enjoy those precious children.
ReplyDeleteHaving read your post over on mine I have come here for a long read.
ReplyDeleteBe strong and never let your goal out of sight.
Your happiness while your husband was away was so evident. It's obvious that is what you need.
Erm...think I might have missed a fairly large chunk of the story here. Last thing I remember was something to do with a garden shed....
ReplyDeleteThink I'd better have a trip through the archives......
Hope you're ok.
This must be so difficult for you. When is your husband next away?
ReplyDeleteSo here it is mid-week already...you doing okay? Those "happy thoughts" carrying you through?
ReplyDeleteI believe I've mentioned in the past being a tad envious of your anonymousness and the freedom to write down thoughts and feelings that I, myself, cannot get away with for fear of doing even more damage.
But we've both found a new hope, haven't we? (If I can say that without it sounding all Star Warsie.)
As Cheshire Wife says, when is Husband next away? Start making plans now....
ReplyDeleteKeep positive! Think of 5 good things! :-)
ReplyDeleteTo mark the last post of my year long blog a quick thank you for following it.
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