My life, since 2008, is mostly documented here. I have met a lot of beautiful people along the way both here and in the 'real world' and I am so grateful for all those years and people and the things I have learnt. It has been an amazing journey and I could never have imagined where it would have ended up when I started my blog, on a pure whim, in March of that year.
However things have been a little different here in suburbia over the last 6 months or so. It has been hard to write it here, mostly because it has been too visible and I have not wanted to cause more upset to those who I have already hurt. Time is supposed to be a great healer and although this year seems to have flown by, 6 months is a pretty long time I guess.
So, today, quite unexpectedly, Lovely Man and I found ourselves talking about things that have been unsaid. I have so very much to thank him for, he is indeed a lovely man, endlessly tolerant of me and forgiving and he has supported me through thick and thin. However, as he puts it, "We are not as we once were". He has seen me through tumultuous change and maybe it was bound to end like this - I am a different person now to the one I was when we met here and then in the real world back in December 2008 - but that doesn't make it any easier for either of us.
Six months ago we went our separate ways, my hope was to be friends at some point - sometimes such a vain hope but maybe we will make it so?
In this time I have moved on, a new man and new experiences. Lovely Man says he is moving in the right direction. I wish him well, more than well; I wish him happiness and peace, and I hope we will, for now and, if we are lucky, for a long time into the future, be solid and good friends for we have shared to much to throw it all away, much too much.
...And after all, he gave me my name.
Having good and true people in your life is a privilege, I consider myself incredibly lucky.
Thank you
Suburbia x
17 comments:
Wishing you every happiness - it has been a privilege to be part of your journey :)
That's really lovely Fi, thank you- so great to know you on the other side of the world- how else would we have met?!
I can say that about a lot of lovely people I have met from their blogs, or mine. I am sure the answer is never :(
Lovely post. I wish happiness for you all.
Thanks a lot Steve
You have equally made me more now than I was on that lovely bloggy, hair-scrunchy day.
A wonderful journey indeed, and though the last few stops on the journey have been hard for MFS and BS5, the whole journey itself had joy in abundance as its number one ingredient - a joy it would be folly to ignore or throw away.
I wish you joy and contentment too x x
I wondered about the disappearance of Lovely Man some months ago, but decided not to ask. You've told your story, when you were ready and able to do so. Some things work, and some do not. Tis the story of life.
I trust better things are in store!
Blessings and Bear hugs!
People change and relationships change. I am happy for you that you had Lovely Man in your life to see you through some difficult times, and I admire you both for realizing you have both changed and need to move on. Wishing you much happiness wherever your journey takes you, Suburbia.
I had guessed that this had happened and it did make me feel sad for you but these things sometimes have to happen.
Anyway, I really wish you all the very best for your future relationship. Hoping everyone ends up with the life they want and that any hurts can be righted as I'm sure that they are already starting to be.
Hoping you are really enjoying your summer.
Maggie x
Nuts in May
Glad that you found Lovely Man, sorry it didn't last, but good that you are still friends, and that you've found a way to move on. Hope life is a bit less tumultuous over the while xx
Pleased that Lovely Man was there when you needed him. Sorry to hear that he is no more, but it is good in a way that you have accepted that both of your situations have changed and moved on. I hope that there is a Lovely Man 2 out there somewhere.
Like others I too had guessed that things had happened. It's so good that you are still friends and able to be more than civil to each other.
I hope your time in Lisbon is all that you've hoped it will be and more and that the future will be even more amazing.
With TG and SS in tow your life certainly won't be boring!!
xxx
hiya lovely lady!!
I too havent been around much, certainly not posting since april (dad dying so soon after Mum/Moannie) and decided to write a catch up post tonight...and say hi to my bloggy pals..
I remeber your first post about lovely man...the first time you met and the first touch...and i thought wow...that is powerful stuff, on many levels, I hope I feel it also...one day...
and the day you and lovely man came to Carlisle...wasn't that a lovely day/pub/chat....
and again another chapter begins....
but remmebr to...
BREATHE!!! lol
luv to you both!! Saz x
Ooh, I've only just seen your blog post. How inattentive of me! All news to me, I didn't know you and LM had drifted apart. You obviously had some good times with him and as you say he's supported you when things were tough-going. I hope you stay friends, and I'm glad to hear you have a new man and new experiences. Onwards and upwards!
And I'm happy to have been your blogmate and Facebook friend for so long!
Ah, Sub, I've missed out on so much of you. Take care, and have a wonderful journey.
Heather xx
Thanks so much Bear
Hey Jenny, you're still there?! How's things?
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