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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Missing

It's a beautiful sunny day today. My children are on holiday by the sea and I am in touch with them daily. They seem to be having fun, which is good isn't it? I'm trying not to think of it as them having fun without me, and anyway, I am also enjoying my time here very much, you can't have it both ways.

It seems that they are body boarding and crabbing most days (not at the same time obviously.) But while they are away, I can't help worrying about them; are they safe in the water? Will Small Sprog overstretch his crab line and fall in? Are they completely covered in sun cream? Are they
being 'good'? Then there is the underlying, but ever present thought - are they missing me?

Do I want to be missed? My parting words to Tall Girl were, "Have a lovely time, live for the moment, don't think about what is missing, enjoy what you have". I have only recently learnt this myself, after many years of living in the past and regretting or wanting what has been. When she was on holiday with me recently she was sad because she missed her dad. Hence the conversation above. So do I want to be missed? Do I want them to feel sad? No, I don't. But do I want to be missed?

Perhaps. . . . Just a little.


This was the view from our bedroom window in Scotland last week. Beautiful isn't it?

22 comments:

BS5 Blogger said...

Did you see this for real at any *early* point of a morning or did someonoe else take the snap? !

Suburbia said...

Why would I get out of a cosy bed, early in the morning, to take a photo when there was someone else to do it for me? ;)

Liz said...

Now that's not gentlemanly, Mr BS5!!

You want them to miss you a bit, of course. Or at least for them to tell you that they did when they return!

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Surburbia, I know exactly what you mean. It is hard not to regret and to look back but we all have different experiences in our lives. Perhaps the thing is to regard them as "experiences" and even the less good ones...try to think of them as having a place in our lives and for a good reason.

I'm sure they do miss you - more than just a little!

Clowncar said...

A fine line, isn't it? Between safety and freedom, hope and fear, love and longing? I'm sure they are having a fine time. And sure they are missing you.


Nice pic.

Elizabeth said...

What a wonderful view!
I can quite understand why you don't post a lot of photos
but I love pictures.......

Steve said...

They will be missing you and finding your absence as odd as you find theirs... I guarantee it. :-)

nick said...

Nothing wrong with them missing you a bit, it shows you're important in their lives. It would be worrying though if they forgot about you entirely!

Suburbia said...

Nick, I won't let them do that, I am texting and calling daily :)

Casdok said...

I know just what you mean. Its a difficult one isnt it to get the right balance.
Beautiful photo.

gaelikaa said...

Hello! I enjoyed reading your post. In north India, the summer holidays for the schools are from approximately 15th May to the end of June - one and a half months now. Summer is over and the rainy season is in full swing:)

Reasons to be Cheerful 1,2,3 said...

Of course they miss you! But they can deal with it because you're a great mum.

Chic Mama said...

Oh I do admire your strength....I will take lessons from you. I'm finding it hard my children being away from me for just a few hours- they always do such exciting things, I'm trying not to get jealous but I can't help thinking that should be me doing those things. My husband used to make such a fuss about going on day trips when he was with us.Is it all a big act to impress silly bloody tart? I'm not sure?

Linda - Gold Coast said...

I loved your parting words to Tall Girl. I'm sure they are both missing you very much. Beautiful location to relax and wind down.

~JarieLyn~ said...

I think we all want to be missed by someone, whether it be kids, spouses, lovers, crushes, friends, etc....... we all crave it just a little bit and it's okay.

Carol said...

I'm sure that they will miss you...one of the best bits about going away is coming home and being able to tell someone all about it!!

C x

Working Mum said...

You don't want them to be miserable missing you, just glad to see you again when they come back.

McBöbø said...

Well, we missed you not saying you were in Ed. Bad Suburbia!!!

Akelamalu said...

You wouldn't be human if you didn't want your kids to miss you hon. They'll be over the moon to see you when they get back!

That view from your window in Scotland is just beautiful. :)

Suburbia said...

Sorry Bobo, maybe next time? And it was your birthday weekend to I believe :)

Wanderlust Scarlett said...

I missed you. Good to be back here again!

God I love that photo... and I very much miss Scotland. Ache for it.

Thank you for the fleeting gift of it today. ~HUGS~


Scarlett & Viaggiatore

Letty - A Little Girl With A Curl said...

Hey, I love the photo! It looks like where I walk my dog.....

I wondered what part of Scotland you stayed in.......

I moved here 25 years ago this year, and love Scotland to bits.

that view is so familiar to me I am sure you must have stayed around near us here!!