Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Well actually it was an e mail, bless him, I just like the way he writes.......
Thank you for the Easter card, it was nice to hear from you. I was getting rather worried, I though you had fallen off the edge of the planet!
I guess you are on holiday this week. Its strange the way things work out, we will be at Cranford Crematorium, down the road from you, for a funeral on the 23rd of the month, (pity it's not this week!) Its a cousin of Chris's who I have only met twice, both time at funeral's.
We didn't go away for Easter as we are saving our pennies for the cruise next month, and at last it has become dry enough to get the garden organised, so guess how our Easter was spent....
Have you ever tried writing on the computer with a fat moggy on your knees, who at times adds the odd letter for good measure and sings very loudly? The other cat is sat on the chair next to me, looking fed up because he didn't get there first. It's not easy and not good for my back, having to lean over him.
Hopefully we shall be able to meet up some time and if it's after our holiday we can show you our photos of life around the Baltic.
Seeing its well after 11pm I guess its time to close.
Thank goodness the " Fat One " has decided to get down on the floor, he's not stupid he knows Chris will be out of the bathroom any minute now, and that means cat supper time.
Love to all...
From Dad and Chris.
Sweet huh? Mind you, we did spend over 30 years of our lives not knowing where the other was, so falling off the edge of the planet was a bit strong I thought!!! (I didn't mention it though)
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
While thinking about this I also remembered, few summers ago, how Husband commented on a father holidaying with his two children.
"How sad" he said.
"What is?" I had replied
"He is on holiday with his children alone. He must be divorced"
I remember looking on and thinking that perhaps the mother was just working or doing other things and that the holiday was more of a happy event than Husband had assumed. I also remember thinking that Husband talked as though he was taking a glimpse of his future, before our future had become completely apparent to me. Perhaps he did realise how things were here, deep down, even before I voiced my opinions.
And now he has just come home from a brief spell away with our two children. A holiday taken with himself as sole carer. The children seem to have had a happy time, was he as sad as he thought he would be a few summers ago? I have no idea.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
She expressed complete surprise at my current home situation, though she has been aware of it since January. We haven't spoken much about things before. "You were the perfect couple" she said a few times, trying to make sense of the situation.
It is a while since anyone has said this too me, and it always takes me a back. Were we? I guess at some point in time we must have been, but it still seems funny that people should have that opinion of our lives. What is the basis of their judgment? I want to ask, who is ever perfect?
When this happens I start to question myself. Was it really that good? Have I completely lost my senses? And as I dwell on the last 15 years of my life, it seems that I have grown up and changed more than I could ever have expected to, and yes, it may have looked that good from the outside, it may have even been that good from the inside, for a while. But now there is nothing left, no connectedness, and from where I am standing it is a very bleak landscape indeed. Goodness me, how things have changed, and how right I am to have made the decision to leave.
I can see her struggling with the idea. She has been married for just as long and it's never been an easy relationship. Perhaps my circumstance makes people uneasy about their own relationship. If ''The Perfect Couple'' can become disenchanted, then what's around the corner for anyone else?
But do you know what? There is no perfect. What they saw was not the reality, and for all the arguments and tough times that Mother of Two Boys has come through, their relationship is far more real than mine ever was, they connect, they touch and they still care about each other.
And as for what is around the corner, well, does any one of us ever know the answer to that one?
So now that you think you know all about me, you should know just one more thing. During the turmoil that has become my married life over the last few months, I have met someone else who has become very important. I just thought I should let you know.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
(I think he means inflate!)
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Tall Girl, however is becoming more of a teenager by the minute. She threw a strop before school today and gave me a look that could kill, rather than saying goodbye, as she left. I didn't let her get away with it, but I fear there is more where that came from. Tomorrow I am taxi servicing her and her friends around in the afternoon (they finished for the holidays today). I don't mind doing it at all, but I don't want to be taken for granted. I have a horrible feeling that it goes with the territory?
PS. I went to the solicitors today ( leaving the dwarf outfit at home) but when I arrived and started to talk to her, she suddenly realised she couldn't act for me because she had already spoken to Husband. How annoying (and odd too because she had been recommended to me, and was not easy to find). Apparently their computer should have acknowledged the conflict of interests when I made the appointment, but someone had spelt my name wrong, so it didn't show up. I should have gone as Grumpy after all, because I was afterwards, VERY!