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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Finally

Tonight is the last night I will spend in this house. After all the waiting it seems very strange, almost unreal. I have been here 9 years, Small Sprog was less than 18 months old when we moved in. He learnt to walk in the back garden, both children learnt to ride their bikes here, they have both started school from here, they have celebrated many birthdays and Christmases here too, they have grown. So many milestones, So many memories. Yet for the children, to move house will be even more strange. Tomorrow I leave for good, but they will continue to come back here to their 'home', every time they see their Dad. I hope they can deal with that. I am glad that I don't have too.

I would never have guessed, when I moved in, that I would move out under these circumstances, alone with my children. It is a strange life. Sometimes, I think, it is better not to know what the future holds.


15 comments:

Lakeland Jo said...

wishing you all the very best

Maggie May said...

Strange how one's life can suddenly change from one thing to another.
I'm sure there will be other happy memories in store for you.
It is a new beginning and I wish you well.
Maggie X

Nuts in May

Suburbia said...

Thank you both. I was thinking of you Maggie as I wrote the last line.

Fab, feisty and fifty... said...

to my fellow mover and shaker....l am thinking of your every step....l have walked them afore you....and as long as you keep busy....you may overlook the angst and work it out of your system before you even notice the feelings..

l wish you everything l have wanted for myself recently and more...much more..
luv saz x

Rose said...

It will be bittersweet, no doubt, but I am so happy you and the children are going to be able to make a life of your own.

Sending you an e-mail.

Jean said...

Setting up your new home will feel great and will be lots of fun with just the kids and friends to help. Nobody to bully or intimidate you or continuously whittle away at your self esteem.

Good luck and have fun !!

Furtheron said...

Yesterday's history, tomorrow a mystery... live for today


Good luck with the move

I hope the kids soon settle - they will no doubt as they are much more resilient than adults I find a time

nick said...

As Jean says, nobody to bully or intimidate you, you and the children can enjoy your own house just the way you want. That should do wonders for your self-confidence.

Steve said...

It's natural and only right to feel a little grief, a little wistfulness. Feel it, take a deep breath and then move on...

Suburbia said...

Thanks everyone. Furtheron, I like that, going to put it on my side bar x

French Fancy said...

There are bound to be moments in the next few weeks when you feel a bit low and a bit 'oh, what have I done'. These will soon pass I am sure and then you will wish that you had done it a few years earlier.

The best of luck with everything. You know we are all out here rooting for you, TG and SS - and of course SO.

Family Affairs said...

good luck with it all - it brings all my memories flooding back. Not easy, but you will no doubt find that you feel calmer and dealing with the kids without an influence that invariably disagrees is great! Lx

ewix said...

I know this must be a bittersweet moment but I say HOORAY CONGRATULATIONS

from that post ages ago when you mentioned
crying about lack of passion etc
this was sure to come...

So here's hoping the future will be better and less stressful for all of you

You specially and the children

and even for the children's father

GOOD LUCK

Suzysoo said...

Oh my! What a lot has happened since I last read you!

I remember this was a tiny spark of an idea back then. You just mentioned that you were very dissatisfied with things as they were. I can see I will have to catch up quite a bit!

Good luck for your new future! I hope the sun shines on you all every day x

this is my patch said...

When my parents broke up, my Dad left his job too. We had to move out of our family home, as it was tied with my Dad's job. I went to live with Dad while Mum eventually moved in with, and later married my Step-dad. Admittedly I was 18 at the time, setting out on my own journey in life, but it's surprising how quickly you adapt to the changes. x