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Saturday, October 11, 2008

Lost and Found

Some days do you get that feeling of well being? Just out of nowhere? I had it today, just for a while. It was absolutely brilliant! I don't know if it was the amazing blue sky, the unexpected warmth of the day or bouncing with Small Sprog on the trampoline. Or maybe it was none of these things, or all of them put together. It definitely wasn't cleaning out the rabbit hutch, sorting out homework or being at every ones beck and call! (they all want a piece of me at the weekend) Anyway I bathed in it and it felt good.

Since Tall Girl has started senior school the whole family routine has changed. The changes have been subtle but, because I HATE routine, it has been quite liberating! For example (and I don't write those words on here normally!) since Tall Girl was a small girl, starting school for the first time, I have made packed lunches. For her and Husband, every weekday (although he did say he would make the sandwiches for both of them...once!). Then when Small Sprog started school I made them for him. Every day, five days a week.

Seven years I have been making packed lunches. Seven years!! But no longer. Tall Girl likes the independence of buying hers at school, and Small Sprog has found that school dinners 'hit the spot' especially as there is a roast dinner twice a week!
"Seven years I have been making packed lunch" I declare to Husband. He gave me a look of disbelief. I didn't say, you have to make your own now, but I think he got the idea!

Anyway, it may be a small thing but it is one of many small things and it has made the world of difference to me. And of course it's not just that. I feel I have started to take my life in both hands. I feel more in control, I am finding more time to do the things I want to do. I am feeling more confident. So today, for a moment, I was more than a mummy, a wife and a cleaner. I began to feel a little bit more like myself.

21 comments:

Mean Mom said...

At one point, because of the 4 males in my family, I was ironing at least 20 shirts a week. I don't miss doing that! Like you, I was very relieved when I no longer had to do all those packed lunches. The other thing I, personally, don't miss from when my 3 lads were at school, is ploughing through all the school newsletters. Oh, and one more - I don't miss parents evenings!

BS5 Blogger said...

Delightful! Let's hope the 'you time' flourishes and lasts.

Hullaballoo said...

7 years dear one? You deserve a service to the nation medal. I H A T E making packed lunches, don't know why, I just do.

And you know, that feel good factor you are getting is all about discovering the joy of autumn. Don't scrumfle your nose up at me, you know you love it lol.

Maggie May said...

Brilliant, Suburbia. All those sandwich making days and years! It is like coming out of jail! Lovely post!

Kitty said...

Once again, I can relate. Although I am still making the packed lunches. No.1 doesn't want to buy her lunch at school, and No.2's school doesn't offer a hot lunch (shocking, isn't it?) I can't wait for the day when I don't have to do it anymore - it takes ages, doesn't it?

I'm really pleased you had some good 'feeling like me' time. Fingers crossed that it happens again and again ... and soon. x

Peter said...

Congratulations! Seven years of making lunches? Putting the favourite fillings in, mixing it up...no longer! Hurrah!

Pete

Brett said...

Good for you, about time he made his own.

Akelamalu said...

Isn't it strange how just not having to do one little thing is so liberating? :)

Dori said...

Yes, Suburbia...there is more to life than "wifing"!

Gill - That British Woman said...

think what you were doing for your bank account, saving all that money?

I must admit, I am so glad to be over those years, now I just have to put dh's "bait" up five days a week.

Gill in Canada

Liz said...

Daughter had Dairylea cheese sandwiches for ... well, for ever I think. No, I lie. She would alternate with marmite later.

Oh happy days, not doing packed lunches.

Now about getting together ...

Liz said...

You know that black box on the side? It scares me. I want to click on it but i'm too frightened to.

Daisy said...

It's amazing what a blue sky can do..we should have more of them!

lucy said...

awww suburbia! it's amazing how much a mom gives of herself! i like that last sentiment. feeling a lot like yourself!

btw, my boyfriend tried to get me in charge of his meals. I didn't last a few months. although for YEARS i did the laundry & NOW he is doing it!!!!

Yay! Ummmm... maybe i shouldn't have brought up laundry...oops.

Dori said...

I had to stop back by--your comment put Monty Python in my head...

"Always look on the bright side of life...dum dee, dee dum..."

Because, after all...what's a day without Monty Python? :D

cheshire wife said...

Nice to be able to choose between a packed lunch or school lunch. When I was at school we had to have the school lunch unless there was a good reason not to.

Rose said...

Maybe just a small step, but you are on your way to finding more of yourself! I don't miss those chaotic mornings of trying to get everyone off to school and making sure they all had their homework, their gym clothes and so on. Enjoy these small victories.

Casdok said...

What a lovely happy post!
And may you enjoy your packed lunch retirement!

Wanderlust Scarlett said...

I *LOVE* that you feel like that!

I am grinning for you.

Independence and leopard shoes. I'm looking forward to hearing about your evolution from chrysalis to butterfly, because the evidence of that happening is shimmering through!


Scarlett & Viaggiatore

starnitesky said...

What a relief not to have to make the packed lunches anymore, I still make one - for me!

Fat, frumpy and fifty... said...

...and every now and then it dawns on me..I that is ME saz, has managed to keep two children alive on my food and nurturing for nearly 17 years a miracle in itself..I can hardly believe it to be true....and then the teenage angst kicks back in and I KNOW it to be true...hey ho!!

btw..I think l'll always find time to post/blg...as its my only outlet..the only place where I get to speak, shout rant and screAMMMM...LOL

what is it they say, by the frozen fish fingers....no one can hear me screammmmmm!