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Saturday, December 04, 2010

The here and now

Before was like mud, dull and sodden, cold and without beauty.
There was a shadow, a presence of unsaid disgruntledness.
We scooted around it, the children and me, we still sang our songs, and baked our treats, we still opened calendars and oozed excitement, yet there was always a moment when I was reminded that we were
too noisy,
too soon,
too much.

That was then.

Now it is real.
It is sharing and excitement and planning.
It is whispering gifts and hiding packages.
It is singing loudly without need for closed doors.
It is counting and longing and looking ahead.
Not just to a brighter Christmas but to a more vibrant future.
It is making the most of the moment, playing the Christmas CD too loudly and knowing no one will say it is too soon,
too noisy,
too much.


Rob-bear said...


That's the way it should be for any celebration, unless somebody's deathly ill (and in need of a bit of quiet).

Sounds like three of you are having a dandy time. Congratulations. May you have many more such times.

Furtheron said...

I think you are definitely in the right place

Akelamalu said...

The first of many perfect Christmases! :)

Lakeland Jo said...

This is such a happy post- its lovely. In sentiment it reminds me very much of my own most recent post- LET'S CELEBRATE :)

Saz said...

l think we've been in each other homes at christmas new year then..
too much spent, too many gifts,
last year...he said looking at the tree ad gifts xmas morn

'wtf is all this, no!'

'turn that down'

'not sure l can eat much, not very hungry'

laughing at a childs gift..'what made you get me this?!'

'stop singing in there...!'

'its too noisy..'

'where did you buy this?'

'l'm off at out...see ya!'at 3.30pm

to return at 11.45pm

bah humbug, stuff it up yur jaxsy!

luv u and so happy for you

sara xx

Louba said...

Have a fabulous Christmas :) I remember the joy of my first Christmas post separation, no worrying about what he thought, no expectations, no disappointments. It hasn't worn off one little bit.

Rose said...

Lovely sentiments! Enjoy this Christmas season to its fullest and loudest!

Wanderlust Scarlett said...

How wonderful!! Merriest of Christmases to you sweet lady.

Scarlett & Viaggiatore