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Thursday, May 20, 2010

Perhaps

As I drove along the tree lined road to work this morning, I realised how green and lush everything is looking now. I love the lime green colours of the fresh new leaves in the spring time and I realised how, living further into the city now, it was all passing me by this year, the loveliness of it. I am missing the green, I am missing picking spring flowers from my garden to bring indoors and smell, I am missing the sound of bird song.

Constantly I contemplate when and where I might be able to at last buy a house of my own. All I really want to do is be in the countryside, somewhere small and comfortable, where I can see the setting sun on a summer evening across open fields.

A dream may be. Impractical at the moment, very much so. Ever to be realised, who knows?

Yet, as I'm driving and thinking things through, I remembered a comment made on an earlier post of mine. Someone pointed out how I had once craved love and passion and to actually feel something and I have that now. I am lucky.

So maybe, if you want things badly enough, set your heart on them, push towards a goal, maybe, just maybe you can get there in the end. Time will tell, yet this time, it seems even more impossible.

16 comments:

scargosun said...

Everything is impossible until you make it happen.

Ok, enough pontificating. Get thee to a picnic this weekend!

saz said...

l know owning ones own home is a dream ...but may l offer that you enjoy the now time, with the kids and your loved ones....
its just l've spent so much time on the what ifs and the l would likes, and in a few years we may...and then it comes to nought and l think jeez l've wasted so much energy and effort hoping and wanting, l havent been living in the moment.. and l am trying so hard to do this and not to expect anything, its much lighter and less exhausting....and er... disapppointing...dont mean to preach Sub...just want to offer a perspective...

if l look back, it isnt the homes we owned or didnt own that matter...its the memories and laughter l remember and smile upon...

Steve said...

If you are constant in your wishes then they can only come true...

Lakeland Jo said...

If you put it out there and create it in your head, take action, you can have it. Best of luck to you with it. Other half and left two well paid jobs just over sixteen years ago, and came to live in the lakes. Just married, no money, newly pregant, no jobs... and now I have that view you speak of.I never regretted it. XX

Suburbia said...

I understand Saz, and I am trying so hard to live in the moment, but it's the 'knowing' and the security I crave. I know my moving out date from this place, and I can't help but worry and wonder where we will end up next. It is unsettling. I have a nice home here, for now, but I can't afford it past a year. I am grateful to be here, but can see the end, and time goes so fast. Maybe I'm just feeling a bit negative today?

Akelamalu said...

You have to make things happen - I think you're doing that. :)

nick said...

I guess if you want something enough and you look at every way you can achieve it, you'll get there eventually. Just keep your eye on the goal!

the eternal worrier is: said...

Hi Sub, I know that feeling about owning a home of your own. But give it time and it will work it self out. Think back to how much things have changed and moved on over the last 18 months. x

this is my patch said...

Hold on to your dreams. It's what keeps me going! x

Maggie May said...

Yeah...... everything and anything can happen to make it possible.
Keep on dreaming........
Maggie X

Nuts in May

troutbirder said...

I couldn't live very well without the joy of pottering in my own place and garden.
I was in a nostalgic mood this a.m. looking back at the first few of some 400 posts. And you were one of the very first "commentors". Thanks...it got me going! :)

Rose said...

Don't give up on your dreams! It may seem all rather unsettled now, but you've come so far in the past year. Just think of it as taking one step at a time.

Letty - A Little Girl With A Curl said...

I have been missing from my Diamonds and Stone Blog just lately, for I have the dog blog and now an allotment which of course entailed yet another blog!! Google Blogspot will be overload with my blogs, but I still look in and read yours, and soon hope to post again on Diamonds.

My wishes for you, as always, are for happiness and love.

Your friend, Letty xxxx Please don't forget me, I haven't forgotten you and my good thoughts are with you.

Furtheron said...

Good for you to have that vision.

However, sorry to be a sourpuss, a note of caution don't let the dream get in the way of life. I've seen some people chasing dreams and never enjoying the moment they are in.

Rob-bear said...

There's something on the sidebar of my blog about living with adversity. If you think it would useful, help yourself.

Brett said...

Your post do seem to be more up beat, its great to see after all you have been through.