My life, since 2008, is mostly documented here. I have met a lot of beautiful people along the way both here and in the 'real world' and I am so grateful for all those years and people and the things I have learnt. It has been an amazing journey and I could never have imagined where it would have ended up when I started my blog, on a pure whim, in March of that year.
However things have been a little different here in suburbia over the last 6 months or so. It has been hard to write it here, mostly because it has been too visible and I have not wanted to cause more upset to those who I have already hurt. Time is supposed to be a great healer and although this year seems to have flown by, 6 months is a pretty long time I guess.
So, today, quite unexpectedly, Lovely Man and I found ourselves talking about things that have been unsaid. I have so very much to thank him for, he is indeed a lovely man, endlessly tolerant of me and forgiving and he has supported me through thick and thin. However, as he puts it, "We are not as we once were". He has seen me through tumultuous change and maybe it was bound to end like this - I am a different person now to the one I was when we met here and then in the real world back in December 2008 - but that doesn't make it any easier for either of us.
Six months ago we went our separate ways, my hope was to be friends at some point - sometimes such a vain hope but maybe we will make it so?
In this time I have moved on, a new man and new experiences. Lovely Man says he is moving in the right direction. I wish him well, more than well; I wish him happiness and peace, and I hope we will, for now and, if we are lucky, for a long time into the future, be solid and good friends for we have shared to much to throw it all away, much too much.
...And after all, he gave me my name.
Having good and true people in your life is a privilege, I consider myself incredibly lucky.