I experienced a brief escape from suburbia to the Forest today. Though the day was grey and wintry, it matched my mood as the trees and fields sped past. I turned up the volume in the car but it was turned down again and I was reminded that I have no autonomy here. I closed my eyes, felt the comfort of the cars vibration and slipped easily into my own thoughts of an oasis there.
Later on we arrived at my sister in laws and I realised that being in company is the perfect solution to my mood. Husbands nephew, who is 31, was there and we have not met for quite a while. I enjoy his company and so do the children. Four generations under one roof, and a dog! What more could I ask for? Communication is a great healer. We tell stories and exchange views. I am now coveting Nephews i phone and so is Small Sprog, who has a definite talent for 'tilting' games!
Nephew is in a finished relationship but unable to escape. His parents are obviously worried. As I leave, my sister in law talks over her worries. "Nothing ever stays the same" I tell her, "Something will happen" and I realise, as I speak, that I am not thinking of his relationship but of my own.