Monday, June 30, 2008
The children had a day off school today, an inset day where the teachers are supposed to do training, but if you ask me (which you are not, but a rant is near impossible to overcome when discussing their school) having an inset day this close to the end of term can only mean that they are wasting a valuable training day just clearing up the odds and ends for next year.
However it was to our advantage, it was my day off anyway and the weather was beautiful so we had a taste of the summer holidays together. It was like a breath of fresh air!
We left early and drove up to Cheltenham to see my mum. On arrival there was tea and homemade cake all round before we went off to the local 'pick your own'.
Small Sprog is always keen to pick fruit. Anything to do with food is always a winner with him! He takes the whole thing very seriously. We went along the lines of fruit (just the two of us together as we had left Granny and Tall Girl back in row one) tasting each variety that we could find for strictly market research purposes you understand! We found some particularly sweet ones at the far end of the field. Small Sprog agreed that these were certainly the best and we set about filling our baskets. He did an excellent job.
After a while Tall Girl appeared. "How many have you got?" I asked her. My basket was half full already.
"Just these" She says.
"Is that all?" Well it was no surprise really! She just stands there chatting!! Very girly I must say.
"Can I have one?" She asks me. Then I realise that what she means is "Can I pick her one!!"
"I'll peel you a grape too shall I?" I retort. She slops off back to Granny.....
Later we regroup in the raspberry patch. Small Sprog and I have a basket and a half of small sweet berries. Granny has gone for size over flavour and has a basket full of GIANT ones! I secretly think that ours are far superior in flavour but say nothing. Tall Girl's basket contains about six! But she says she has had a great time. She truly loves her granny very much!
Despite eating half our body weight in soft fruit, we were all ready for lunch which my lovely mother had prepared before we left. I didn't have to lift a finger, it was just what I needed and she didn't even know it!
We had a leisurely afternoon and I had time to play with my children because I wasn't doing any chores. I am blessed and I know you will never read this but, thanks mum!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
While out walking, Small Sprog was hungry (again!) so we looked for somewhere to stop along the way. Husband spotted a bit of a rock that looked big enough for us all, at a squeeze and the ground was damp so we settled for that. Husband sat down on it. Small Sprog plonked himself next to daddy. Tall girl and I looked at each other. Where were we going to sit?
"Come on then" said Husband impatiently "There's still room for you"
Tall Girl sat next to Small Sprog. The rock was full.
"There's room at the back" says Husband. And there was, just a little, so I sat down behind Small Sprog. It was quite pleasant and peaceful being there. No one talked to me because I was the wrong way round but the view was lovely; a path we had not yet walked along and a myriad of green leaves swaying gently in the breeze. I felt Small Sprog lean his back on to mine. He was warm and it was comfortable, feeling his weight against me. We ate our cake. I was supporting my son, I do it every day, one way or another.
Soon the children were up and running about. Husband asked if I wanted to sit around his side.
"No" I said, I was happy with my view, and in reality I just couldn't be bothered to move. But as I was there in my own little world, I realised how this was my place in the family. The one who gets the seat at the back! The one who clears up the mess and the one who is last to sit down! I began to contemplate my lot, which is never a wise thing to do I find. Mostly I spend my time rushing from one event (crisis!) to another, keeping busy, no time to stop, assess or think about anything deeply. Is the rushing a cover? Do I keep busy in order to avoid the realities?
From my children I get unconditional love, I need or want nothing else from them. They are the best thing about my life and I know I'm lucky to have them both. But then I started to reflect on the less positive things in my life, the previous week being an example.
Husband doesn't do birthdays. He bought me a cookery book this year which I already had! He had talked about getting something else but didn't get around to it. "We can get it another time" He said, and that was it. I think it's up to me to get it now but I've lost the enthusiasm. He forgot our anniversary, as you know, but it would have meant so much to just have had a token something, even after he'd remembered. Am I asking too much? Am I just a little spoilt child that doesn't like being forgotten? Probably. We live our lives along the same path but sometimes it feels like we are just going through the motions. To busy to stop, to tired to play. I cook for him, clean for him, make his bed. Tears welled in my eyes. There has to be more? And I started to think how nice it would be to be cared about or even cared for, just sometimes, not taken for granted, the one who gives support and comfort, the provider of food, the one at the bottom of the pile.
It took me by surprise.
I felt very lonely there in the woods.
I know I have so much to be thankful for. We are all fit and well and I am so very thankful for that and, considering the present climate, we have no money worries to speak of. So I'm sorry to whine in my childish voice but sometimes it helps to have a good moan. I think I might even feel a little better already!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Just as we were driving onto the M5, having crossed the bridge, Tall Girl pipes up from the back " Have we crossed the bridge yet?"
"Oh, you never told me we were crossing it!" She complains
"I didn't know I was supposed to" I retort (a mothers place is always in the wrong!)
"I really wanted to see the bridge" She whines again.
"Well sorry" I say "I didn't know you weren't looking out of the window!"
"But I really wanted to see something and now I've missed it"
"Well don't worry then, Daddy will just do a U-turn in the fast lane!" I say sarcastically
She harrumphs in the back of the car. We are all tired and a bit 'tetchy'.
A few seconds later Husband shouts out "Hey, Tall Girl, there's a sign! Oh look and some trees, now there's a big blue sign......."
I glance behind me. She is wearing her 'I am not amused' look together with her 'I have such stupid parents' eyebrows.
Husband always knows how to make things better!
Friday, June 27, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
W could have been for wedding anniversary, but
it was a bit of a non-event! SO....... W is for Wisteria in my garden,
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008
When we arranged our wedding day I thought it would be fun to have it so close to my birthday.
I was wrong.
We never celebrate.
After birthday celebrations only 4 days before (not to mention, this year, the great occasion of my 103rd post!) Husband is all celebrated out! So much so this year, in fact, that he has forgotten!!
No divorce papers issued though, (not yet!), because I nearly forgot too, but I did manage to get a card at the local shops yesterday afternoon.
Husband looked very sheepish this morning. He looked so sorry that all I could do was laugh! Of course he may come home with a 'giant token of his undying love for me' this evening but experience tells me not to hold my breath!
Monday, June 23, 2008
Anyway, as I said, this is not a cleaning post. I am not lamenting my 'lot' as a domestic (slave) goddess. No, this post is a celebration!
What am I celebrating? My 103rd post! I know, I know, it's more traditional to celebrate your 100th post and I really wanted to but, you see, over the weekend, during my excitement over my birthday celebrations, I totally missed it! How could I have missed my 100th post?! I've been watching the counter for days (yes I have a very fulfilling life, thank you) and I realised it was getting closer, and then all of a sudden, it had gone, without a by-your-leave, never to return again. Bugger! It's a bit like the mileage counter on the car; it's just about to reach an interesting number, like 454545 or something, and you want to catch it right on that number. So you try to concentrate on it (watching the road at the same time of course) and all of a sudden you realise that you've drifted off and it now says 454546. And that's it, never again. A moment in time never to be repeated!
It happens allot now I come to think of it. All those moments in life that we look forward to and treasure, we have them, live them for a second, then they're gone and you can try to recreate them, but it can never be exactly the same ever again!
So, a lesson to myself, beware! Things sneak up on you slowly and then run past in a tricksey sort of way just to catch you out! We're so busy looking forward to the future, we forget to enjoy the present!
Here it is then, my freshly conquered 103rd. Fully odor counteracted (see photo), now in fresh cherry fragrance! Thanks for visiting over the last 103, and if you haven't been around much recently, come back soon because it can get boring here without you. (You know who you are!)
Live for the moment!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Friday, June 20, 2008
We have a tradition that there are chocolate croissants for breakfast on someones birthday. The children can pack away several. One makes me feel a little queasy so early in the morning, 11am is a good time, with a nice bowl of coffee to dip them in!
So the usual round of rushing and brushing took place. I couldn't resist a quick look at my blog before work. However as I was just reading some comments there was a howl from Small Sprog upstairs.
"Tall Girls got me wet" He whines
"No I didn't" She shouts downstairs.
She will deny anything, they both will, and I'm never sure who was the culprit on many occasions!
"Look!" I shout back"It's my birthday and I don't want to hear you two arguing!"
However I look up the stairs to see Small Sprog drenched. His top is wet through and he looks sorry.
"Don't worry" I sooth " Just go and put another one on!"
The last rush for the front door arrives. We all scoot out and push bags and jackets into the car. Half way down the road I remember the wet top. I look over my shoulder. He seems to have the same one on.
"Did you change your top?"
"Yes" He nods
"What did you do with the wet one?" I ask suspiciously
"I hung it on the floor to dry" He says sweetly!!
Of course, he's right, where else would you put it?!
These are for you.
Go on, have one, you know you want to.
Just one little one.
It is my birthday.
And besides, if you don't have one, someone else will come along and eat the lot!
This was my first cyber bouquet!
Thank you BS5
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Most of it was for Small Sprog, a Horrible Science book about bugs, 2 large books one about castles and another about vehicles, with fab pictures of the aforementioned in cross sections, the Beano annual 2007 (which is all I went in for!) and some audio tapes.
This was one of the story tapes, a Dick King Smith story about a dog called Smasher. I thought it would be right up Small Sprogs street!
He was delighted. He loves listening to story tapes and I love him listening to them because it keeps him quiet! So when I showed him all his new things he sprinted straight upstairs and was gone for some time (bliss!). However when he came down later I asked him if the story tape was good. He wrinkled his nose.
"Isn't it a good story?" I asked
"There's a lot of explanation at the beginning " He complained "But it's OK."
"That's funny" I thought. Perhaps he meant the bit at the beginning where the reader explains copyright or something. I thought no more about it.
So this morning when I went into his room to see if he was dressed, I was pleased to see that he was listening to his tape again. The narrator had a gentle Canadian accent which was quite pleasant to listen to.
"Is this your new tape?" Why do you ask this sort of question when you know the answer is yes?! I often tell him off for asking the obvious!
I listened some more.
"This doesn't sound like an animal story" I say "Are you sure you've put the right tape in?"
"YES" In his 'duuurrr -brain' voice!
"Are you sure?" I make towards his tape player and open it up. This is what was inside!!
The photo is a bit blurred. I think I was giggling when I was taking it! In case you can't read it, the tape is 'Kevin Trudmans Mega Memory, lesson six'. Not quite Dick King Smith. Not quite a story at all! I can't believe he had listened to it for so long. And where were lessons 1 to 5?!It was extra funny because Small Sprog is not renowned around here for his memory at all. In fact sometimes I worry that he isn't quite with the real world, he often has zero recall!
"You can't listen to this" I laugh "It's not a story"
"But I like it" He whined.
"It's for grown ups"
"But it's a good story" He protests.
I knew what he meant. The man had quite a soft voice, you could just imagine being lulled into a soothing sleep whilst listening! But story it was not. Poor old Small Sprog. It has made me wonder if he actually takes in any of his story tape stories. Perhaps he just likes the sound of a narrators voice for company!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
It bites this greenhouse. Bites and scratches too. It didn't come with a warning. It didn't come with much at all come to that. Imagine Greenhouse of the Ikea kind and you'll be close.
I have to say Husband has surpassed my limited expectations. He has 'kept at it' despite injuries and set backs. I have not heard him swear once, though I must say I have kept well out earshot!
Bits of greenhouse have spent the last 10 days lying on the lawn, the ends lovingly wrapped in rags to stop it biting anyone who unsuspectingly wanders past. However last night, after work, it became almost greenhouse shaped!
I looked out of the kitchen window to see 3 sides vertical, with help from the garden bench and the washing line, but even so I had the idea we had arrived at the summit and it would be down hill all the way from here. Alas it was not to be. I went upstairs to make sure Small Sprog washed in his bath rather than just 'marinated' and while I was up there a dejected Husband shuffled in.
"How's it going then?" I asked cheerily.
"It's not!" He muttered
"But it was nearly up just now."
"Well, I bolted 3 corners together and then I couldn't find anymore bolts, so I took it all down again" He really did look deflated. His Greenhouse, the one he'd been coveting for years, was almost a reality, only to be dashed at the last hurdle.
"Oh dear" was all I could manage. Small Sprog was swishing backwards and forwards in the bath and the water was dangerously close to spilling out and through the kitchen ceiling.
"Will you have to go back to the garden centre to get some more?"
"No I've found them"
"But you've taken it all apart again" I say, stating the obvious which probably didn't help.
"I know, after I'd taken the last bolt out I picked up a bit of plastic bag and there they were inside." I resisted the urge to laugh! How could he have gone to all that trouble for nothing? Poor Husband, and he was bleeding again, his arm this time.
He came home briefly this morning. The petrol situation means he's staying close to home. He'd been to the garden centre to get some extra bolts anyway, 'just in case'.
"I saw that nice bloke again"
"Which nice bloke" I ask, puzzled.
"The one who sold me the greenhouse"
"Oh" Is always a safe reply, but I was thinking "If he was that nice he would have kept it in the shop!"
Husband continued "I told him I was having a bit of trouble and he said he had someone in last week who'd been trying to put one together for 6 months now!"
Great! Roll on Christmas I say!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
However the down side of being away is coming back! Not that I didn't want to see the children, I always miss them, but everything that I normally fit into the whole weekend was still waiting to be done and I had barely and afternoon left to do it in.
Small Sprog had different ideas! I had been absent long enough and as far as he was concerned the rest of the day was his. As soon as granny had gone Small Sprog wanted a cuddle on the big bed and I have to say it was a privilege to oblige! He must have missed me, he never asks for cuddles now. However once upstairs I was captive. He rummaged in my jewelry that is haphazardly stored beside my bed. He put a bracelet on me, then another and another, then earrings. He found a makeup brush and lipstick and applied these in a wibbly wobbly way! Then he tried applying mascara (I do still have both eyeballs left!). Then he found an eyeliner pencil. I was given cat whiskers and a black nose. He surveyed his work with a frown. It wasn't quite right. Then he started to write on my lower jaw.....Miaow! Lovely, I was finished now.
"Do you like my beauty parlor mummy?" He asked me.
"I love it!" I laughed "It's the best beauty parlor I've ever been to."
Friday, June 13, 2008
There's a lady that lives at the top of the road who walks up the hill past our house every night. She walks very slowly from the bus stop at the bottom and by the time she has navigated the slight incline she is going at snails pace.
"Which house does she live in then?" I ask husband who seems to know 'who lives where' right up the road to the end of the close. I however, am not very observant and have no idea who anyone is unless they live within 3 houses each way!
"She lives at the top, the house with the Range Rover" He replies.
The man that drives the Range Rover looks quite trim and fit for his age. I look at her again, poor thing, puffing and panting up the road. They don't appear to sort of 'go together'.
"The Range Rover?" I comment "Poor thing, you'd think he'd pick her up from the bus stop at least"
"She looks like Zorba the Greek!" Husband says.
"That's really horrible"
"I didn't mean it like that"
"Well, in what way did you mean it then?!"
I had better stay trim in my old age I guess.
We're off for a child free weekend. See you soon. Byeeeee
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
This was Small Sprog in excitable mood and on a mission.
"Do you want a drink?"
"What do you want the cup for then?" I asked suspiciously.
"We're going to make slime!"
Small Sprog has a friend home for tea. A girl, but he takes pains to say not a "girlfriend"! She is incredibly rascally!! In fact he has 3 friends that are girls who are all rascals. He sure can pick them. A few minutes before they had been laughing and shrieking upstairs like loons!
"Where are you going to make slime?" I say, trying to keep a reasonable tone.
"In the bathroom" The rascally one pipes up. She has beautiful long blond hair and twinkling blue eyes, with that sort of "butter wouldn't melt" look about her.
"How about making it outside?" I suggest in my best "singsong" voice, with a smile as encouragement.
"We'll be fine in the bathroom" She replies.
"Hmmm," I think "I know you will but will I?"
"What are you going to make the slime with?" I can't remember him having a chemistry set stashed away in his bedroom!
"What sort of stuff? You can't have any of my new shampoo, it cost a fortune." The hairdresser had talked me into buying it and I was well and truly stitched up.
"Tall girls deodorant" He snigger's
"No!" I shout, laughing now too at their naughtiness. "You can't use your sisters stuff either. Why don't you both go and give these to the rabbits?"
That stopped them in their tracks. Green beans for the rabbits and they were off down the back step like a shot. I breathed a sigh of relief. When they came back they'd have forgotten all about making slime.
Wrong. They were back in a trice.
"Can I have that plastic cup now,?" Says Small Sprog.
"I know, why don't you have a jug and some soap outside? You can have some bicarb and some food die too if you like" I was getting desperate. Mum is coming this weekend and I have given the bathroom a "once over" already because I'll be at work for the rest of the week. Who knows what it will look like if they succeed in their mission, let alone what I might loose in the process!
For a moment the Rascal isn't convinced but Small Sprog has had dealings with me before (!) and knows that he might not win this one, so he agrees.
Off they go down the garden (Husbands domain, so no worries about mess on my part!) with their jug, washing up liquid and bicarb. They choose pink food colouring and use the outside tap for water. Sorted. But no! Five minutes later Small Sprog comes in with Rascal in tow, brandishing the jug. There is a goo in the bottom of it which is fizzing and looks extraordinarily like strawberry jam.
"Take it out!" I shout, momentarily loosing my cool.
"It's lovely, look!" They giggle, stirring it with the wooden spoon I'd given them.
"Yes, it's remarkably lovely." I reply "But it might be better if you keep it outside."
They wander out looking a little deflated. A short while later Small Sprog comes back in with a less that trustworthy look on his face.
"Are you OK?" I ask
"Fine" He runs through the kitchen into the downstairs toilet, but he's not in there long enough to "do" anything!
"What are you doing?"
"What have you got there?" I make a grab as he runs past but he's off, running at speed, carrying the lovely new soap that I'd just bought for the downstairs loo. I was loosing the will to live now! At least the food was nearly ready, that would give them something else to do.
However I was just about to "dish up" when Rascal shouted from the back garden "Oh no! Look!" I run out into the garden expecting the worst. And what sight! They had had an "accident" with the food colouring (which said pink on the bottle, but looked blood red). Rascal had dropped the small bottle on her foot and now looked like a victim from the trenches! Bright red "blood" was spread over her toes and most of the top of her foot. She looked as though she'd just had all her toes amputated! I suspected that Small Sprog had seen the effect and "accidentally" done the same with his foot!
"Quick" I panicked "Wash your feet in this bucket" I'm not sure how indelible food die is (I know now, VERY!). What will her mum say? They head for the back door.
"No, do it out here!" I screech, visualising husband returning home from work any minute to a kitchen of "bleeding" children. I don't think his stomach could take it. The whole episode could have dire consequences, cold sweat, fainting, heart attack even. (God forbid he take to his bed again!!!).
And that was my evening really! I'm not sure my nerves can take much more of Small Sprogs antics and it might be a while before Rascal comes to tea again!
Monday, June 09, 2008
"When will you be my granny?" asked Small Sprog today after tea today.
"I'll never be your granny!" I replied
"Yes you will, when you're old you'll be my granny." He insisted.
"I'll always be your mummy, even when I'm old."
"Who will be my granny then?" He asks, puzzled.
"Your granny will always be your granny and I will always be your mummy!"
"But when I'm old, if you have children then I'll be their granny!" I laugh, seeing the confused look on his face. "But I'll still be your mummy, I'll always be your mummy!"
"So when you're a granny do you want to be a granny or a grandma?"
"I want to be a granny" I say. " My mummy's a granny and my granny was a granny so I want to be a granny too!"
Do you think I took that conversation just a little bit too far?!
Sunday, June 08, 2008
- 2 sticky toffee puddings, one for my mum (who is looking after the children next weekend while we have a night away) and one for the following weekend when some friends come to stay.
- 1 enormous lasagne, also for said friends weekend.
- 1 lemon and poppy seed cake, also large, to take to work on my birthday sometime soon!
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Of course he was delighted with it and (obviously) wanted to take it home, along with a few dead beetles that he'd found earlier in the week! I reminded him that it was still very much alive and he couldn't see the problem, although he thought he may have a better chance of persuading me to let him have it if the thing was dead, so he crossed his fingers and hoped it would 'peg it' over night! He was quite upset when it was missing the next morning. However Tall Girl breathed a sigh of relief because she doesn't share his enthusiasm for bugs and refused to go anywhere near it!
Back to this weekend and Small Sprog has been to a water pistol party with the nit children down the road. He came home completely drenched right through to his pants and had a thoroughly great time. It looked completely wild as they all raged up and down the street outside, water pistols in one hand and birthday cake in the other!! Luckily our next door neighbours are away this weekend as their children are grown up now and they are not amused when the children all play together outside even though (apparently) their own children ran wild here years ago!
As I was drying Small Sprog down (before he went back out to battle number 2 unbeknown to me!) I noticed his non specific (so the doctor said), non contagious rash has nearly disappeared! Thank goodness. He looked rather like Mr Blobby yesterday!
Friday, June 06, 2008
'He was so naughty in class today I didn't know what to do with him!'
'Well you know he was at hospital until 11 o clock last night'
'No! And they sent him into school? What was wrong?'
'Something wrong with his tonsils. Oh yes and he's been constipated for weeks!'
'Poor diet I expect.'
'Yes' Smugly 'They probably feed him rubbish'
I knew the child they were talking about and he does have a tough time. However as I glanced up to see their smugness and superior healthy eating habits I noticed all four were tucking into a bag of crisps each!!
Thursday, June 05, 2008
So here we were ready for a relaxing and warm holiday in the sun. But things rarely go to plan and this was no exception.
The photo above is of our favourite beach. It looks like the perfect day for a swim. It was too, if you were a jellyfish! There were hundreds of them just in the shallow water on the shore. It was too dangerous to swim and they were so happy the little buggers were there all week! Last year the children loved the sea here but we drove down three times last week and never so much as dipped in a toe.
The weather was ridiculously unpredictable and the mosquitoes were very friendly. Oh yes and I got food poisoning! I've never felt so ill and Husband was worse than useless! All I wanted was someone to sooth me and tell me I'd be better soon! (I didn't want him to 'assist' in any way!) I don't usually need this sort of attention when I'm ill and prefer to be left alone but perhaps being somewhere else made me feel a little insecure and I really NEEDED MY MUMMY!!! Husband was completely inept at the job.
'I'm sacred' I said pathetically
'Oh, it was probably the stuffed aubergines, or the creme brulee or..'
'Don't talk about food' I whimpered. The thought of what I'd eaten hours before was not what I wanted to be reminded of especially as I knew that sometime soon I would be seeing it again one way or another!
'Talk to me about something that will take my mind of feeling sick.' I demanded
There was a long pause. I knew what he really wanted to do was to sit quietly and read his book!
'We ought to do another trip to the supermarket tomorrow, we need some more ........'
He couldn't do it. He was hopeless! He had no idea how to comfort me or what to say at all! In the end I said' Why don't you sit outside and finish your book.' It was really was the best place for him!
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
The trip was good. Both the flights were normal this time and on the way home Tall Girl managed to look out of the plane window once or twice! So hopefully that is the end of that little phobia that she was cultivating.
We had mixed weather while we were away. In fact it was the worst May weather there since 1940!!! However, saying that, we did see quite a bit of sun (suitably tanned and gorgeous thank you BS5!) and loads more than we would have had had we stayed at home apparently.
Small Sprog ate his own body weight in garlic while we were there and Tall Girl has learnt how to 'strike a pose'!!
One evening, whilst fighting over who should have the antihistamine cream conveniently placed next to their bed(in case of an intolerable itchy bite incident), her or me, Tall girl took a look at my mosquito medals and said in a very grownuppy voice ' Well that's what happens when you wear a dress out at night'!! Oh She of Great Wisdom, who on the same night wore extremely short shorts. I felt like I was on holiday with my mother!
Small Sprog was in his element. I swear he is a reincarnation of someone who once lived in the Mediterranean. He just soaks it all up, the food, the sun, the lifestyle everything. Indeed he wants to live there. He says it is his 'first home'. However when we got in the car to leave for the airport yesterday morning he was very quiet. Five minutes into the journey I turned around to check that we hadn't just left him behind on the pavement (he is rarely quiet for long). But there he was, sitting behind me with huge great tears rolling silently down his lovely brown cheeks. No sound was coming out at all. Tears welled up in my own eyes, he looked so sad and inconsolable. 'I don't want to go home' he cried. I knew how he felt.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Just got home! Really tired, but just had to have a peek at what is happening in my cyber home!! So I'm just peeking. Just a bit. But I'm not really here. Not yet. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be here. Just for a short while after work. Yuck, did someone say work?!!