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Sunday, February 08, 2009

Little black clouds

So, my time is up! I am back, sharing the house again with Husband. Small Sprog was very pleased to see his daddy back, Tall Girl came to me in the kitchen after she had greeted him and asked if I was happy.

Tonight I will go back up to the spare room to sleep, having swapped to be close to the children over the last few nights. I had forgotten how a little black cloud would descend over my world, without warning, as soon as Husband came through the door. I can already feel the stress building between my shoulder blades.

Still, I have had a lovely time while he's been away, and for that I am thankful. This will be the second Sunday night in a row which I will spend, remembering to be thankful for what I have had rather than mourn for what I no longer have.

20 comments:

Maggie May said...

This is getting so sad.
It reminds me of how sad my daughter was before her husband got very sick. Things were much the same.

There's not much anyone can say really except that we are all thinking of you and wishing you well. X

Hullaballoo said...

That sunny attitude will bring you through anything. Well done you for making the most of your time.

Hulla
xx

Kitty said...

You will have it again one day - happiness that is. A day at a time, small steps towards your goal. (Did you do that thing yet?!) x

Tawny said...

If I could give you a hug I would, I wish I could say something to make you feel better. Please know I am thinking of you and sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

Akelamalu said...

This is sad. :( I hope you and hubby can make mutually agreeable arrangements so that you are both happy again.

Fat, frumpy and fifty... said...

Your spirit is in tact my friend...you will survive and endure and be better for it!!

Lindsay said...

You must be in a very difficult situation - hope things sort out soon for you.

Jennysmith said...

Sorry sweetie, missed your last post again.

I really feel your sadness at HIS return. But think forward like you are doing and the sun will shine through.

Thinkin of you xxxxx

Steve said...

Sending hugs.

Mean Mom said...

So sorry you feel that way. It must be very difficult for you, at the moment. At least you made the most of your few days.

Letty said...

Hi Surburbia, you are right to have made the most of your days without Husband.

I am sure you will come through all this, to quote the sad old cliche,

what does not break us, makes us stronger.

My thoughts are with you.

Letty ;0)

Que Sera Sera

Take comfort in your children, they are the future.

From one who knows............

starnitesky said...

You will survive, your thoughts are changing for the positive so that is a good sign. I am thinking about you. Hugs!!

Rose said...

Wish I could chase those black clouds away for you, Suburbia! Keep thinking positive thoughts and enjoy those precious children.

aims said...

Having read your post over on mine I have come here for a long read.

Be strong and never let your goal out of sight.

Your happiness while your husband was away was so evident. It's obvious that is what you need.

the mother of this lot said...

Erm...think I might have missed a fairly large chunk of the story here. Last thing I remember was something to do with a garden shed....

Think I'd better have a trip through the archives......

Hope you're ok.

cheshire wife said...

This must be so difficult for you. When is your husband next away?

Dori said...

So here it is mid-week already...you doing okay? Those "happy thoughts" carrying you through?

I believe I've mentioned in the past being a tad envious of your anonymousness and the freedom to write down thoughts and feelings that I, myself, cannot get away with for fear of doing even more damage.

But we've both found a new hope, haven't we? (If I can say that without it sounding all Star Warsie.)

nick said...

As Cheshire Wife says, when is Husband next away? Start making plans now....

Jon M said...

Keep positive! Think of 5 good things! :-)

Brett said...

To mark the last post of my year long blog a quick thank you for following it.